elearawrr:

AHH

So um, this isn’t really sustainable. All of a sudden I get nervous around you and I think about you a lot and I think about what you think of me and I wonder when I’m going to see you next and I wonder how this will end and I remember that we haven’t really been just friends in a very very long time and I am just doing too much thinking. 

This whole arrangement was supposed to just be fun and all of the good stuff without the bad but now that I’m thinking so much I don’t think I can enjoy it anymore. Something has got to change. Because I think you’re different and I sure as hell am different and we’re different, so all of my previous arguments about having seen the other side of the hill and the grass isn’t greener are moot. I think we’re on a different hill (I will always be the metaphor queen).